panda life

白も黒もどちらも私。20代専業主婦の育児、生活、漫画と本の話。

Diary

私の頭の中の落書き

なんか、急に多忙になってしまった気分。To doリストを作って、やるべきことをメモして…メモしてる暇があったらさっさとやれ。やらないと、終わらないんじゃない?と自分の頭の中で何人もの人間がつぶやき合っている。 やるべきこと、やらなければいけないこ…

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引っ越しの準備と再就職のための研修の課題とラブライブ!のイベント…普段は、やるべきことがいっぱいあるときほど、不思議と疲れを忘れて生活できるのに、今回はすっかりやられている。 気がつけばもうすぐ7月。梅雨なのに雨が全然降らないせいか、6月を早…

Mar. 18th 2017

We went to see our new house today because we had a meeting. The floors had already made so we could enter the inside. Though the stairs had not made yet, we used ladders and went up. I am very looking forward living there.

Mar. 16th 2017

I was too stressful for my daughter today. I got mad again. It is too difficult for me to change my personality and grow up as a mature person. I miss Tokyo and go back there with her for a while. I will make a plan seriously.

Mar. 15th 2017

am I tired? Why cannot I forgive my daughter? I got mad several times today. She cried. I do not know why I am so stressful? because of life style? the room we sleep is too small and I cannot fall asleep. Oh, that is...

Mar.14th 2017

Today is White day, but it is not my business. I did not give a chocolate to my husband. He was given one by his collegue. He bought two boxes for her. My daughter and I went swimming. It was rainning, so I did not take lunch box today bec…

Mar. 13th 2017

I was exhausted when we came back home yesterday. So I do not remember when I fell asleep. I was sleeping when the alarm at 7amrang. I got angry too much today. I could not stand my daughters attitude. I want to sigh...

Mar. 11th 2017

Six years passed since the earthquake had happened. I was at home and about to go outside to send a letter. I felt it was an emergwncy happening. The earthquake was much bigger than I had known. However, I did not think it would be such a …

Mar.10th 2017

I got angry to my daughter so much. I scold her when she makes the same mistake again and again, or she does not stop doing what I do not want her to do. However, I love her so much and I think she is very cute. I always hug her tight.

Mar.9th 2017

My daughter asked me to let her go to the hospital because she had a pain on her finger. So we go to see a doctor and got a medicine. She was still afraid of getting into a bath tab. However, she finally did it. She was given a lot of chee…

Mar.8th 2017

I had kept a diary every night, but I fell asleep before writing it last night. When I woke up, the date had already changed. I was shocked. I am concentrating on reading books, and forget to take a rest. I am tired.

Mar. 6th 2017

My daughter is afraid of taking a bath. She has a blister and it pains when is gets wet. I am not sure if it is really painful. Is she just scared because of trauma? We will go swimming tomorrow. It is troublesome for me to keep my true op…

Mar.5th2017

We went to a cafe at lunch. Though I had been there three times, my husband and daghter came there for the first time. This cafe offers vegan dishes. We enjoyed various vagetable dishes. Before we left, I bought a handmade cup. It is blue …

Mar.4th 2017

My daughter seemed to be irritated today. She cried so much before she went to bed. She wanted to see picture books more. It is diffocult for me to control the schedule on weekends. Lives get more complicated when the number of people who …

Mar.3rd 2017

Today was a dolls festival. We celebrated at home. I cooked Chirashi zushi and osuimono. I let my daughter take a nap and she could not fall asleep tonight.

Mar. 2nd 2017

It was rainy. My daughter likes rain, so she asked me to hold her and show her the outside of the window. We went to a play room. Of course, I took an umbrella, she likes it. We walked with singing songs about rain.

Feb.28th 2017

It is my period. I am very dizzy today. I really wanted to lay down. So I held my daughter and took a walk to let her take a nap. We were sleeping until 4:30pm. She could not fell asleep until 10. We enjoyed playing in the park this mornin…

Feb. 27th 2017

My daughter has a pain on her finger. She cried when she took a bath. She was prescripted a medicine and I put it her finger. Her bone is not broken. It is a blister because of shoes shift. I hope she will get well soon. One of her friends…

Feb.26th 2017

I am too tired to have let my daughter go to aee a doctor. She cried when she took a bath. She told us she had a pain. Her finger was bruise. She did not stop crying. So my husband took her to the emergency hospital. I am waiting for their…

Feb.25th 2017

My husband made cheese. Its way was very interesting so I took a picture. I want to upload it on my article. We had some before dinner. It had not been perfect yet. I am looking forward to eating it with a toast. We went to Daikanyama to h…

Feb.23rd 2017

I do not want to hear my husband's voice. His advice often leads me to wrong ways. I am trying to do what I want to do by myself, and then he unterrupt me and says something. I obey it and now I am regret. He is angry now. AH... I cannot u…

Feb.22nd 2017

I do not want to regret that I have married my husband, but he often make me do that. I cannot stand him anymore. I cannot have a good relationship with him even though I have tried to do that thousand times. If I had a job and earned as m…

Feb.21st 2017

I bought my new smart phone, which was the same one with my husband. He tried to set up it, but he could not finish that because the maintenance time came. It is OK for me as long as I can use the old one. The problem was that I could not …

Feb.20th 2017

It was too windy today. My eyes were ichy, and my daughter did not take a nap at all. It made me irritated. Now I am so tired. Though I have already had dinner, I will have another food later. I cannot stop eating. I want to write a letter…

Feb.19th 2017

I got up early and left home at 7:40 am to take the 2nd exam of STEP pre-1. I was nervous because I did not prepare for it enough. On the way to the University, the exam station, I met a high school girl who also would take the same exam w…

Feb.18th 2017

I had a headache and sore throat this morning, and I wanted to take a rest. My husband and my daughter went to the city that we will move about half month later by train. They went to see how our house was. It seemed to have just started t…

Feb.17th 2017

My daughter was looking forward to seeing her friends at pool, but most of them got fever and could not come there. She seemed to be sad. I cannot stop eating. I am always hungry, but I have no idea what I should have. Am I stressful too m…

Feb.16th 2017

I took my daughter to see a dentist early in the morning. She did not have teeth decay, but we will have to come again two months later. A dentist let me brush my daughter's teeth. It was my brushing lesson. I was given some advice how to …

Feb.15th 2017

I had caught a cold. I have a sore throat and a slight fever. I also feel chilly. I had better to go to bed early and take a rest. However, I love to keep my weblog, and cannot stop writing. I am so sleepy though...ah...

Feb.14th 2017

Today is Valentine's day. I did not prepared for chocolates to anyone. I was waiting for some chocolates that my husband would bring, however, he forgot bringing ones. I could not have any chocolates tonight. I picked a slice of bread now.…